My first blog

Okay,
so I'm not too sure who, if anyone will be reading this blog. So maybe it's just a personal motivational tool for myself to reflect upon. I am currently unemployed and living off of my EDD checks and bumming money here and there from various sources. Not too honorable of a lifestyle in my opinion, and to tell you the truth i really don't know how I ended up in this predicament. I know that i do have a goal, irregardless if i don't think i can actually achieve it, or even if I really want to achieve it. I am in the hiring process for the U.S. Customs Border Patrol Agent along the Mexican Border. I have passed my written exam and been given a tentative job offer. My background check and other paperwork have been sent off to Minnesota awaiting approval. I just received my Oral Board Interview Appointment letter. I will be meeting with 3 top dogs down in Chula Vista for an interview. This has got me really nervous. I don't know what to tell them.
On top of all this, I have been trying to get in shape for the Physical Test and medical exam. This has really been killing me. I don't know when they are gonna call, and if it is anytime soon i most likely wont be able to pass the physical. I have been working really hard and trying to get down this test stuff, but i don't think i will be ready. I am depressed. I have 69 dollars to go buy healthy food to last for a while. Trader Joe's maybe?? I need to sell some stuff soon for cash.
More updates to come later.

Push ups today: 5 regular 15 on knees, Required for Test: 20 regular in a minute.
Sit ups today: 15 crunches. i cant do real sit ups, shit. Required for test: 25 in a minute.
Ran: 1 mile in 16.54